09/07/2009 - 3:41 am
Its been too long, I was trying to kid myself into thinking that I was getting past this childish stuff but I just can't move past it.
Regardless of how well everything seems to be going I have this lingering sickness and I know that it's the hole that you have left within me.
Everytime I do something exciting or experience something new I tell everyone close to me but it just isn't the same.
I need to hear you, your voice. Nothing seems real or validated without you.
You made me what I am, a huge part of me is you and I'm still struggling with it.
I know that you would tell me to get a grip and that nothing was because of you. You'd tell me that I did and achieved everything of my own accord but it just isn't true. You were and are the only person that ever truely believed in what I am and can be and without you none of it really seems to matter.
Everything I do I want to share with you, the pain, the love and the joy and it just isn't possible anymore.
I love you more than you know and ever did know. I miss you with an ache that I know will never leave me.
Yours forever,
Kiddo xxxx
